This whole ordeal has been a bit of a nightmare.
My boss agreed to help me file for workman's comp to help pay for a nerve conductivity test and (if necessary) a surgery to fix my wrist. We did the paper work, had my doctor sign off on it, and sent it in. I had an appointment locked in but the financial office called asking about payment. I have no insurance, and this is a workman's comp claim. She then told me there was MORE paperwork that needed to be done and the appointment would be pushed back further. For one, I have to wait for the paper work to go through, two I have to wait for 'confirmation paperwork' to arrive in the mail, and then I have to call after the 10th of this month because the doctor is on vacation till then.
I'm not at all happy about any of these delays. My arm has only gotten worse. Some nights I wake up with my fingers numb or tingling. They tingle when I do simple tasks at work and I have lost a lot of my grip. I want to do artwork but I'm terrified of aggravating my condition so I keep it to a minimum and even then, I keep it as simple as possible. I'm in a splint during the day and a special one for night time. It makes doing my job a lot harder (I drop things often, I can't pick up toothpicks easily, I have to hold knives a different way, etc.) and I can't seem to get comfortable. I kept myself distracted by playing Poke'mon (and the new Zelda that's just come out) but my 3ds broke last week and I've had to ship it in to Nintendo to get it fixed. I'm going absolutely INSANE from being unable to do most of the things I love. If not for my DLF and our daily dose of roleplay I would likely be in a padded room somewhere. (Seriously, you are a life-saver ;-; )
There's been a lot of family problems too. My younger sister is losing her room mate and I am not in a financial position to move out with her. (That and our cats don't get along. One of them would tear the place apart and the other would mark everywhere. Not good.) So she is stressed about that pretty badly. She works at the same place I do now and neither of us is close to full time. She is also going to school full time. I've been giving her $50-150 a month in the form of cold cash, paying for things, or buying her groceries but it won't be enough. I really wish I was in a better position to help her but my hands are tied. I have been looking into starting on my BA in business at a private college here in town. They allow for students to pay out of pocket and take as many (or as few) courses as they can to fit with their lifestyle. My goal is to be a territory manager for Merrick pet foods here in Oregon. I have a check list of things I need to do to get there but this wrist thing is really slowing me down.
Coupled with the loss of two family members this year, internal family drama, and harassment from the online world I have become a very stressed out individual. I know I'm fighting with depression. I have no energy, no motivation, no drive, and my emotions snap between wanting to curl up and cry to wanting to lash out at anyone and anything I can. Art was one of my outlets for that energy and it's been unplugged. I just feel like there's a gap in my life. I'm especially miserable because I had wanted to do a few secret Santas and in general art gifts for friends this year but anything I do currently will be laughable. I may still try but I know it won't be up to my normal quality.
Sorry for the emo rant guys. I wanted to toss in an update for anyone waiting to see if I'll be back up on the horse any time soon. Any prayers will be appreciated! Doing art...Adoptables?
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C.S. LewisCommissions & Trades I'm waiting on:
Some of these are pretty recent but there are a few that are slowly gathering dust. I'm leaving them up as a reminder to myself (and hopefully the other artists involved).
Two character full body lineart from
- My end of the trade is complete as of September 14, 2009
Five Chibis from
- Paid on December 29,2012 | 1/5 received |Latest ParaChiMar Artwork: Legacy of Para group on DA!
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