Sometimes we find our muses in little things like our favorite song, in a simple moment during our day, or within another person. Very rarely do muses work on our time. Personally, my muse has tunnel-vision. I can enjoy other things, subject material, and settings but for the most part, I don't find true inspiration outside of the setting I've created. I think, in a way, we all create our own comfort zones in which we find our inspiration. It's a place that we create through our lives, a place that's shaped and re-shaped while somehow remaining warm and familiar to us. It's a place that's more home than the world that we live in. CS Lewis was right on the money when he said that "If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world." His popular quote reflects two things for me personally- the desire to live in a world that's within your realm of control and the desire that God has woven into every one of us to return to our true home with him.
Growing up, I didn't have friends for long. In my lifetime I have had only one friend outside of the family last over ten years. Everyone else averages 2-5 years. I move away, our interests change, they fall in with the wrong crowd, etc. My parents were both in the air force, I lived knowing that I would attend a new school every year, and making friends meant saying good-bye one day. I didn't have a sense of home or belonging, no consistency. I wouldn't trade my upbringing for the world, but it was very lonely.
Most of my young life was spent in the back seat of a truck moving cross-country. The only entertainment I had was in the form of a box of colored pencils and a sketch pad. In place of a consistent home, friends, and scenery I would create a world of my own with characters and homelands for them. I lived through them as much as they lived through me. I found inspiration in a mountain range against a morning sky, the desert in the middle of night, and the forested hills that my family passed through. The characters reflect aspects of myself, people I met along the way, and messy scribbles I made growing up.
In a way, I'm going home when I return to that world. In a way, I get through hardship by giving my characters trials of their own. Sharing this world, the artwork of, and the characters is like sharing a piece of myself. I'm always honored to see glympses of other people's worlds and OC's. Through their imaginations they're allowing their watchers a small glympse of their own life experiences, their dreams, their wishes, reflections of themselves, and even their own personal hardships. In a way, it's like we as artists are creating our own multiverse of our own creations. Endless worlds with endless possibilities, all built from the personal experiences of individuals all woven into being with inspiration, imagination, and talent from the greatest of artists- God himself. It's mind-blowing that his desire to create is reflected through us.
If only I had a nugget of his creativity.
My muse has been suffering lately. There's so much changing around me, so many things that have thrown my own personal life into chaos. I can't retreat as easily into my own little world when my muse is pretty silent. I'm trying to rediscover my muse and really breathe life back into not only my art but the characters and the world that fuel it.
"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one."
"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."
"The Christian does not think God will love us because we are good, but that God will make us good because He loves us."
"If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world."
"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be."
"What draws people to be friends is that they see the same truth. They share it."
Commissions & Trades I'm waiting on:
Some of these are pretty recent but there are a few that are slowly gathering dust. I'm leaving them up as a reminder to myself (and hopefully the other artists involved).
At this point...these sit here as "Buyer Bewares":
Two character full body lineart from
- My end of the trade is complete as of September 14, 2009
Five Chibis from
- Paid on December 29,2012 | 1/5 received |
Latest ParaChiMar Artwork:
Seriously! How beautiful is this?! I cannot thank
enough for giving Thalion some life this year. He's one of my oldest, most dear characters and she's captured him perfectly. Thank you so much! ;A; He's stunning!
Legacy of Para group on DA!
and myself decided it's about time we start up a group for ParaChiMar: The Legacy of Para. For those interested this group is pretty much just a good place to dump all of our LoP artwork, trades, commissions, and fanart into. I've also made a small stamp collection to celebrate. Check us out. :3
My buddies & Artistic Icons:
Religion & Politics: